Wednesday 24 February 2010

BACK AT WORK! :)

This morning I went back to work! Not for the whole day, but still - a good part of it, for the first time since the beginning of October. I feel like a new girl again, but I'll soon be back in the swing.

I don't want to bore with details, but to cut a five-month long story short, I saw an Orthopaedic specialist on Monday, and he's going to operate to have a look inside my knee, and possibly drill and screw a bit of bone... I don't think he's sure until he looks, and still nobody can tell me what happened, how or why - perhaps I'll have a few answers soon.

Anyway - till then, I'm still on crutches (can't have Physio until after surgery) so my manager is easing me carefully back into the saddle... But it's good to be back, although I have to admit in lots of ways I didn't at all mind being at home; once the terrible pain lessened I did a lot of meditation and rested up, and people think I'm looking great!

So yet another new experience awaits me in this golden year! lol

:)

Thursday 4 February 2010

Gulf Stream


Last night I watched 'Coast' - I usually forget, but this week's programme on Ireland had caught my attention and I was captivated by the landscape and history of the place.

At one point there was a diagram of the Gulf Stream, and a reminder of all the warmth and fertility it brings to Western Europe. As I thought about it, I was struck by how we each have the choice of what to make of our lives, and how we relate to other people.

My personal mission statement is: "I want to make the world a happier place." It covers just about everything - writing, chatting, listening, joking, baking, being there for people... Last night I went to sleep thinking that I'd like to be a human Gulf Stream - bringing warmth and comfort to people when I can, rather than making their lives cold and icy.

When you go through divorce, it doesn't matter where 'the fault' lies (I think it's incredibly rare for it all to be one side though) - you are faced with choices every day about whether to be as loving and gracious as possible, or whether to go for the jugular, demand what you can, get something for YOU out of it... etc. I know everyone's situation differs and I would never dream of judging somebody for how they handle their relationships, but I did try to be as amicable as possible - and I have to say, that has left me with very few regrets.

The Gulf Stream goes out of its way for us, really. It surreptitiously makes the most tremendous difference. It goes largely unnoticed and nobody thinks to thank it. And yet it serves its purpose in life. I have no idea whether a water current can feel fulfilled, but it ought to...

Not a bad model for life! :)